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Saturday, August 13, 2005

Good in Everyone?

Gerald rode his bike out the the garden centre to peek in & make sure Liz is still OK, cuz he knows I'm still nervous. After all, no one has called the cops on Howard. Who knows what he might me doing? Just cuz Anthony made him apologize doesn't mean he stops being a psycho, right?

So he doesn't wanna intrude, but Ger hears Liz telling Anthony that though Howard's been "bugging" her, she never thought he'd hurt her. Cuz she wants 2 believe there's something good in every1. Am I the only 1 who thinks Liz is channeling Mom (again)? Remember when Kortney was threatening me @ Mom's store & Mom didn't wanna believe it? Then Ger sees Anthony givin' Liz a big ol' hug & saying "That's because there's so much good in you." Then Gerald rode off cuz he was afraid A wd do her right there on the floor.

I dunno, Liz. I'm glad Anthony got the creepy guy off of U. But Howard's still dangerous and now U've got this married guy squeezing U out in pub.

Well, I've gotta go cuz it's time 2 milk the cow. Moooooo!

Apes out


  • At 9:43 AM, Anonymous Liz said…

    I have no defense for my stupidity. Really. I am of two minds. Part of me is really smart and savvy. The other part of me is a completely helpless flower who longs for a man to rescue her. Confused yet? Imagine how I feel!

    All I can say is that Mom has been grinding the logic that all people have good in them since I was in the womb. You should know April, you suffer the same indoctrinations that I do. Remember the twisted fairy tales Mom always told us? "Cinderella was treated very badly by her stepmother and stepsister, but Cinderella knew there was good in everyone so she patiently, obediently and sweetly waited for the day the good showed itself, knowing the great reward that was in store for her. One day things happened with the handsome prince and he rescued her from her situation. It was then that the stepfamily apologized and told Cindy they loved her. Everyone was happy."

    Then there is the "Patterson's are charmed" philosophy. I remember being upset one night and scared. Mom came to me and said, "Don't worry Elizabeth. Nothing bad can ever happen to you. You are a Patterson." I've heartily bought into that as you can see. It's easier and nicer to believe that than walking around scared that the sky might fall on your head.

    As for Anthony. Yes I still have feelings for him. He was my first after all, so yeah there are emotions there. Sue me! I know he's looking a little mature lately, but you must consider how hard his life has been lately. I know Therese is pretty rough on him. He would die rather than admit it, what man wants to admit his wife is abusive? I really feel for him. Also, throw in the fact that I am extremely vulnerable right now. There is no boyfriend at all in sight. Desperation and horniness can make even the most virtuous girl carry on with a married man.

    All that said. Just because he hugs me after a pretty scary situation doesn't mean anything is going on with us! You are all just as suspicious as Therese! Besides, I've done nothing to encourage Anthony's affections...not outright anyway!

    Oh by the way, Becky. You're comment about screwing Anthony was crude. A girl never screws a man...that is of course unless she's a roadside gig!

  • At 10:05 AM, Blogger April Patterson said…

    u r right, liz, mom has screwed us up in lotsa weird wayz. i dunno what else 2 say!

  • At 10:07 AM, Anonymous Jeremy said…

    Hey Liz if I rescue you, will you go roadside with me too?

  • At 1:12 PM, Blogger Vicki Simone said…

    Liz, u should listen to ur head and not ur heart. It's not cube to have an affair w/a married man (especially one that looks like he's in his 40's when he's in his 20's!). U don't want to become a gig!

    That Howard jerk could b really dangerous so u should report him to the police.

    Usually my mom's a foob, but she told me that I might meet the right person when I least expect it, and that I should make the best of my life and not settle for damaged goods, as she says. That was really cube of her!

  • At 1:36 PM, Blogger April Patterson said…

    listen 2 "vicki" liz! it's a big world w/more 4 u than a. & his baggage.

  • At 4:48 AM, Anonymous becky mcguire said…

    bite me liz i m not the 1 who lived with her bf an' screwed him. i m still a virgin. what about U??? i m not a cocktease 2 my married ex. what about U???

    if any1 is roadside...

    (shooting liz a death glare thru the puter)


  • At 7:11 AM, Blogger April Patterson said…

    becks, sumtymz liz sez stuff like that cuz she's got this reflex reaction mom drilled in2 her. she prolly felt bad after she hit the "publish" button.

  • At 4:40 PM, Anonymous Liz said…

    No April screw is a crude word. It's nasty. It's like the big F word.

    Only roadside gigs screw. Nice girls "Quench desires" men "Worship at the Alter of Venus"..etc etc. It's always an emotional bonding time, to be done with someone you have huge emotions for.

    So you can just put away that glare becky! Besides, how am I being a cock tease to Anthony. I pretty much stay away from him. It's not like I walk around dressed like a pole dancer or slip him libidious notes under his door, if you know what I mean.

    Apes, curb your friend!

  • At 4:51 PM, Anonymous Liz said…

    ok ok wait. I'm sorry Becky. I am a little on edge right now.

    No one here is calling you a roadside gig. I'm sure what ever you did with Jeffo (if anything at all), you did because you thought he loved you and you thought you loved him. You were treated really bad in that situation and then nasty rumors flew. You are not a roadside gig because you have ambition or talent. No matter what my dad says!

    Sorry April. I didn't mean to try to start a fight with your friend. I always hated that when Mike did it to me.

  • At 9:20 AM, Anonymous becky mcguire said…

    for the record jeffo an' i only went 2 first base. which is no worse then what april an' gerald do. an' yeah, i liked him an' he told me he liked me. so i got burned. i learned my lesson.

    an' yeah i like 2 dress cute but so do most girls. peeps are just jellus cuz i'm pretty. so what if i used my glamor shot in the "who's who in milborough" book?? i had those taken 4 my career.

    i m sorry i sed mean things 2 u liz but i m so tired of hearing from pattersons that i m a huge slut. cuz it's not true. an' i have feelings.

    ok, so u should "quench anthony's urges" or whatever. all i'm sayin' is that if therese made him all old an' ugly, maybe u can make him young an' studly.

    u are actually pretty cube liz. u just need to stop an' think before u do an' say stuff. ask urself: "is this what my mom would do?" cuz if it is, DONT!!!

    ok liz, are we kewl?



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